First day blues..

    Just like the other first day of my semester.. I definitely didnt like it that much. I am now a fourth year nursing college student but my knowledge in this field is certainly lacking. I clearly remembered my first day as a freshman in this school. Nervous, uneasy, anxious, and worried because a totally unknown people and place surrounds me. But as time goes by.. I still feel that way but not as much as before.
   There was a time..it was on my First year second semester that I cried! Yes.. I cried heheh because of changes.. I really hate changes I cant explain the feeling I feel inside. By that time you will see my physical body but my thoughts are drifted away. My friends are all worried about my behavior,. It takes a number of week before I get used to that new environment. I really need to adapt or else I will not survive.
      I think this sem is the most toxic. A total of 28 units which composed of 9 subjects, 7 major and 2 minor, plus if you are lucky you will assign at 8 hours duty far away from your home. We also have our 3hours review from our previous major subject.Plus our thesis continuation, We also need to conduct our very own seminar which is scheduled in July together with my duty.. our audience will be the other section. We also need to do demo teaching for the subj of SHT. No comprehensive exam for our batch unlike the old curriculum.. they have to pass the compre for them to graduate but in our case.. we only need to pass our subj. In our batch again, the grading system changed into a deadly grading system.. Prelim=15% Midterm=15% Prefinals=15% Finals=25% Quizzes=20% Attendance and Recitation= 10% unlike the old grading system Prelim=20 Midterm and Finals=25% Quizzes=20% A/R=10% .. Our finals now will be cover to cover. I should drop my motto "Past is past" I shoud cherish every lesson that I learned starting prelim up to the finals.
     We also have our terror prof. Every meeting there will be a recitation. Remain standing if you answer it wrong.. Every week he give us 80 words, we should memorize the meaning or else you will failed his quizzes and worst you will be seated on the front because at the end of the Major exam the class will be rank from top 1 up to the last student in your section. I was lucky to be his student 2years ago. I experienced to be on the first rank but expectation pressured me. I hope in this sem even not in the first at least include me in the top 10.. :) 
     First day blues... because I was saddened by my former classmates.. we are 40+ last last sem.. but as time goes by 40 goes down to 30, 20 until we are only 14..(my original classmates). Even my closes companions secluded from our section. Olive who failed the NCM 105 but not deserving to failed, and Charm who got a problem on her grades. Now I only have Juna and Ella. Juna... who is childish and Ella.. who have a behavioral problem.. hayzzz. I really dont know how can i survive this sem...