I'm already 20.. I live in this world for a 2 decades now. When I was a child 20 years old for me is really a grown up! but now I'd turn into this inevitable age and yet I dont feel that so oldster.. being twenty feels like being sixteen again.! (perhaps Im in-denial..) Im no longer a TEEN now :( but age is just a question of mind over matter.. If you dont mind then It doesnt matter. Last year seems like yesterday.. when I woke up I still find myself at the same spot where there's a trace of tears from my nineteen year old self. Whenever Im waiting for the exact time of my birthday, there's always a pinch of tear verging from my eyes and it happened for 2 consecutive years in a row.
Teenage years sure to be the most memorable, unforgettable, that should forget! choz.. hahahha It brought me some of my saddest and happiest mOments in my life. Most specially HIM.. I think 50% of my whole teen age is all about him. (weeh?? I just measure it from the number of times I think about him from high school up to now.) and I think I will spend the rest of my life getting over it.. choz! :) I want to go back from my thirteen year old self and give that girl a huge blow to knock her senses and give her an admonition to be careful so that she will not be badly hurt and broken. Just stay as cheerful as she is when she feels her world she build falls down.. never depend her happiness to anything or anyone. Be still, stay the same even if all things constantly changes. If the person you love walk away.. gather all the remainder courage to face the world again even though I know it wouldn't be easy. When good friends is hard to find, if no one is beside you to share your grievances,.. at least be there for your self. . and strive hard to regain your self.. back to your feet again. breath and live again..You don’t always have to pretend to be strong, and there is no need to constantly prove that everything is going well. Never insist yourself to someone who only overlook your worth.. the most painful thing is losing yourself in the process of loving someone too much, and forgetting that you are special too. Its not bad to help others but you also need to help yourself too. smile! let everyone know that today you are a lot stronger than you were yesterday.. always think positive! ( how I wish magawa mO lahat yan..hehehhe)
For my birthday wish.. I will give it tO you. ^-^ and so.... I already spend my 2 decades here on earth and I will look forward for the future even though it makes me worry about uncertainties that just means more lesson to learn, more tears to cry on, more smile and memories to cherish, more blessings to be thankful. . rest assured one thing is certain.. I will be with myself and I will STAY THE SAME,. HapPy birthday to me!
